I think that a lot of people don’t really understand the central concept of Christianity, especially in the gay community. Before I became a believer, I heard about people who had claimed to be “cured” of their homosexuality by Jesus but then a couple years later denounced that statement and returned to the gay lifestyle; either saying that Christianity is all a lie or that God doesn’t care if they are gay. And since becoming a believer, I have seen this more and more and more.
The promise of the gospel is not to make you “straight”, but to make you holy and blameless before God; not by your own righteousness, but Christ’s. You can only really come to Jesus when you genuinely see your need for Him, not just pertaining to your homosexual desires, but because the core of your nature is sinful and evil and you do not have the ability to escape it. Heterosexual and homosexual people alike are sinners by nature and need the grace of God found in the Cross of Jesus Christ in order to be saved. Knowing Jesus is the centrality of Christianity, and by knowing Him you enter into eternal life through Him.
You can’t come to Jesus simply for sexual re-orientation, it doesn’t work like that. Yes, you should acknowledge your sin and continually ask Him to heal your desires, but you shouldn’t bank your faith on whether or not your sexual preference changes. You should bank your faith on the finished, redeeming work of Jesus Christ on the Cross; that’s the only kind of faith that perseveres.
Your problem goes much deeper than that of sexual nature. Your problem is that you are a sinner, down to your very core, regardless of sexual orientation. Your only hope is to desperately take hold of the Cross of the Son of God in order to escape the penalty you surely deserve. The penalty we all surely deserve.
God can heal you, and you should believe that He will. But more importantly, remember this: God owes you absolutely nothing, and even if you go to your grave here in this temporary world still fighting homosexual desires, God is still good and magnificently merciful for not giving you what you really deserve… eternal anguish and torture.
Everyone who is in Christ will one day be free from sin and the temptation to sin… hold on to that hope. Look ahead with persevering eyes to the reality of that day and allow the passion for the One who stood in your place to fuel you to turn away from your innate sinfulness every single day.
I still fight homosexual desires, and I’m aware many people think it’s because I “lack faith”… and if they want to think that, they can go right ahead. Ironically, all of those people are still tempted by sin in various ways.
I believe God can heal me, and I’m going to believe that He will heal me… but He hasn’t totally done that yet. And I still love Him. He’s still good. I have more joy flowing through my heart than I have ever, ever had before. His sovereign purposes for doing certain things and not doing certain things are for His glory and my good. I trust Him completely.
“God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.”- 1 Corinthians 10:13